Anhiliation in 45 Minutes

Apparently we are bumping into T inadvertantly in the blogosphere. She has some report thingy that keys in on some tags we’ve done. She doesn’t read she says but she sees some of our titles.

God forbid that the woman would have her privacy violated for a few milliseconds when we’re not paying for her attention in her office. We have one week to move our blog.

Fucking shit. God forbid the woman might just slip up and think about us give a shit when we’re not sitting in front of her.

She lied to us. She doesn’t give a fuck. Just like all the rest. Who are we to think that we’re worthy of anybody giving fuck one.

Then, with the few minutes that we had left, she brought out in us the Sad splinter that we just did not want to ever come out. But pandora’s box is open and now everybody knows where it lives. Sad is bleeding all over everything and we have no way to deal with it. We feel hugely violated in this because we have been violated. It’s happened enough to us we know it when we see it.

Bitch. We will never trust another living soul again. Fuckall.



  1. Petr. said,

    January 29, 2010 at 10:16 am

    hun, you can always make your blog private with wordpress. That way you can keep it and she can keep her snout out.


  2. January 29, 2010 at 10:35 am

    Yess, well. Apparently it’s seeing our name and blog titles alone that is so offensive. Bitch. We will never, never trust again.

    • Petr. said,

      January 29, 2010 at 10:39 am

      You can make the whole blog private hun – just allow those who want to to see it. She wouldnt be able to see even the post titles.

      If you find blogging helpful, keep doing it and protect it.

      • January 29, 2010 at 10:47 am

        Ah so. Didn’t know that. How does one do that?

      • Petr. said,

        January 29, 2010 at 10:49 am

        Settings > privacy > allow only people I choose to see this blog

        then you input the names of the wordpress users you want to be able to see it. You can add 35. If you need more you can pay for it.

        Otherwise you can make individual posts private by using the settings to the right of the text entry box on “new post”.

        Then you tell your shrink to get off the net and go see some goddam patients.

  3. shadowlight said,

    January 29, 2010 at 10:48 am

    I agree with the making your blog private idea. Did she say anything about your blogging?

    • January 29, 2010 at 10:56 am

      Said she didn’t read anything which is irrelevant. Apparently it’s that she has to think about us at all when we’re not there. Bitch.

      • Petr. said,

        January 29, 2010 at 11:00 am

        Surely her problem, not yours?

      • shadowlight said,

        January 29, 2010 at 4:31 pm

        well that’s a bit of a stupid complaint :/

        I agree, it’s her problem not yours. ignore the idiot

  4. Karita said,

    January 29, 2010 at 11:01 am

    Honey, I’m so sorry. XXX *Hugs*

  5. Karita said,

    January 29, 2010 at 11:04 am

    As you have never said her real name, or where she works, or said anything bad about her in your posts on therapy, you have every right to keep blogging.

  6. Tiger said,

    January 29, 2010 at 11:30 am

    *huge sigh*

    don’t understand. But, I agree w/ the go private idea.

  7. Susan said,

    January 29, 2010 at 1:41 pm

    If you find benefit and support in blogging, then as Peter mentioned, don’t stop and just make it a private blog. My heart is with you and, if it is okay, I send you a big hug. (((Splinteredones)))

    • January 29, 2010 at 2:00 pm

      Susan–the more hugs the merrier! Or in today’s instance the more hugs the less morose?

  8. January 29, 2010 at 1:57 pm

    Thanks everybody for your help. Think we will go ahead and make it private. Unfortunately we Wanted to reach out to people as an educational thing, but it doesn’t matter as the things we write are just crap anyway. Email me if you wanna get on the bloglist!

    Thanks again, all.

  9. Susan said,

    January 29, 2010 at 2:11 pm

    No, what you write is not crap and there are ways to still educate others. One benefit of a protected blog is it will be a safer place for you to write, vent, and receive encouragement and support without any stranger from the Internet (who doesn’t understand) leaving negative or mean comments. You can educate others by sharing links and info via Twitter and Facebook like I have done. I hope this helps. (((hugs)))

    • January 29, 2010 at 3:16 pm

      Thanks all. We do everything via iPhone and have zip technology skills..good time for a project, though, as we fume and sit in a tight little ball.

  10. January 29, 2010 at 3:25 pm

    She has no right to demand you stop blogging or move! It is none of her business what you get up to online! You are the one that needs protecting, she cannot demand you stop just because it makes her uncomfortable! She ought to be the one removing herself from the places she finds difficult. F*ck! I simply cannot believe this!

    How dare she! How is she even reading your blog titles? There shouldn’t be any way she could do this if not following you directly. If she is seeing RT’s on twitter she can speak to her friends and ask them not to retweet. She should really be friends with your friends anyway, right? Not online. Grrrr!

  11. January 29, 2010 at 3:44 pm

    Yes, thanks. She says she wants us to be talking to HER about therapy and wants to ensure that the therapeutic relationship stays in her office. That she doesn’t want to know anything we don’t bring in….psychodynamic, attachment therapy. Bugger.

    We don’t care if she reads us or not. We would not blog or tweet or whatever about her anything we wouldn’t tell her. Unfortunately we have decided that what this really means is that she has lied to us about the fact that she gives a shit. We believe this means that if we’re not paying her for every second, that she doesn’t give fuck one and she doesn’t even want to be reminded that we exist. Unfortunately as well, she is the only person in our lives that any of us have ever trusted at all. And since she has us feeling things it is a pack of screaming howler monkeys in here just now.

    Something big inside here wants to email her with this, tell her that she has lied and betrayed and violated us. And tell her to go to Hell. We will see what we see about that as the 46th minute ticks on (that’s the working title of our book). At the end of session central told her that we’re furious with her, but as time was almost up she said I am so glad that you could tell me that we can talk about it next time. Bitch.

  12. January 30, 2010 at 5:31 am

    Hmm, well I think it is probably important that you DO tell her how this made you feel (lied to, etc) and make it clear that you don’t feel it is fair for her to ask you to censor your online relationships.

    She doesn’t have to know what you don’t bring in (she doesn’t have to read the blogs) and if you know she can see them then in a sense anything you write is fair game anyway. I write a lot on my blog about therapy, and actually I’ve invited my T to read it. It is a part of our process now and it works just fine.

    (And my therapy is attachment based too, and fairly psychodynamic).

    • January 30, 2010 at 7:18 am

      *settles into samesky’s couch* yes we will have to tell T how her words have impacted us. Created quite the bloodbath inside here. There is nothing we ever say in one place that we won’t in another and so. We have incited T to read out blog as well, but that’s her “working” off her personal time so no go. She’d read if we were in her office paying for it though. Bitch. *comfy couch!*. But yes.

      Thinking of emailing bitchy note. Trying to resist.

  13. January 30, 2010 at 5:41 am

    Shit, I just caught up…I am horrified! Your blogging is none of her business, regardless of whether or not you mention her. Everything is anonymised for God’s sake! I cannot blame you for being angry and distrustful.

    In principle I’d say screw her; keep writing openly anyway. But I know in practice it’s not as easy as that 😦 So maybe a private blog is the way forward. I will email you about access.

    Big hugs x

    • January 30, 2010 at 7:23 am

      Thanks honeypie. We are fit to burst. Had a panic attack over it last night, first one in months and months. So further “discussion” will
      need to be had. Feels like she is trying to stuff us into a closet (next post), which we will do foe no one. We have nohing to hide from or lie about. Hard enough titrating it, being first person singular in Real Life. We just don’t wanna hide here it’s
      the principle of the thing. Grrrrrr. Bitch.

  14. me said,

    January 30, 2010 at 4:16 pm

    it doesn’t violate her privacy. you haven’t mentioned her name.


    really … UNprofessional of her.

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