Rapist Client Fired, Is Enraged

Right. For reasons pawing understanding I had agreed to fire the client who raped me last week. I really do not understand why this is so important but recognize that perhaps in this area my judgements may be off. And so this morning that is what I did.

I don’t know what I expected from this woman. At the time it happened she seemed to have no violence or rage in her, only a rather odd straight woman’s interpretation of what sex between women is supposed to be. She seemed to assume that I felt the same abou Doing It as she did. Although there was no asking for permission in it, se just flat-out jumped on me and off we went, to that far-away place where you’re watching events as they unfold.

As I’m walking up the stairs to her place I become aware of many, many confused splinters all vying for attention. I feel like I’m gonna be sick. Knock knock. Door opens.

Hi there well hi how are you today Nd how’s things going with the pup? (chat about how, again, dog is making no headway).

Deep breath. Well, I have something to tell you that is rather sad, but I am going to have to terminate our relationship. The look of shock and utter dismay, classic. The woman had no idea where I was coming from. Unbelievable.

Why? Do you want more money because I’ll give you more money. I’ll start working harder with the dog (bargaining, bargaining).

No actually it’s about what happened last week. Oh THAT? What’s the problem with that? Well, you see you jumped all over me without my consent, right? But you’re a lesbian aren’t you? I mean, that’s who you Do It with. So what’s wrong I do no understand.

Yes, you know that I’m a lesbian. But that doesn’t meanthat I desire to or am willing to have sex with every woman who crosses my path. Actually I am in a committed monogamous relationship and if Katharine Hepburn would stand in front of me asking for it I just wouldn’t go there.

I feel tha you have violated my person and my trust and I just cannot worm with you any more.

ANGER, certainly a fighting the shame and being rejected thing, begins to rave. You led me on. How did I do that do you think you were so nice to me. You seemed to really aNy me to be better to you know have a better life. Yes that is true and those things are right but that is not the same as wanting coerced sex. Oh come off it you’re a dyke for god’s sake wha does that mean iteans you do it with women anyway, it’s not like sex anyway you’re naming a really big deal out of this. Well, I take my body and my right to do with it what I consent to very seriously as should we all. Yes–that was sex. Even though there was not a penis in the room. Shoving your hands down your pants flicking my nipples and trying to go down on me–those things are sex.

Well says client you gotta do what you gotta do. You led me on you made me do what I did and I’m not sorry about it. It’s not like real sex anyway go screw yourself.

The end. Feeling like we don’t really know where to begin to deal with this. It’s really all just too much.

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9 Comments

  1. Tiger said,

    February 19, 2010 at 5:17 pm

    I am resisting the urge to swear my fucking head off about everything that she said to you. Oh, wait. I think that I may have just started.

    1) sex is sex. a penis does not make or break sex.

    2) lesbian is not synonomous with promiscous slut.

    3) did I mention that a penis isn’t at all needed for a rape to take place?

    4) can we talk abou who gets to make the definitions about what is and isn’t sex? Right, that’d be the people involved in the act. And if I say that something is sex, then regardless of how you feel about it, it’s still sex, for me.

    I am seriously enraged on your behalf.

    • Splinteredones said,

      February 19, 2010 at 5:21 pm

      We feel so protected now. All warm and fuzzy. Thank you ;). And yes–pretty fucking rude, eh? Bitch.

  2. Ravin said,

    February 19, 2010 at 9:04 pm

    I say good ridden to the bitch.

    Ravin

  3. February 20, 2010 at 4:03 am

    Am totally with Tiger and Ravin here. Arrrgh! She is not taking responsibility for what she did, she is trying to put it on you. But you DO NOT HAVE TO TAKE IT! She is totally in the wrong here, and well done for firing her ass.

    • February 20, 2010 at 7:28 am

      Thank you all. Trying to appreciate the value in having my own boundaries. Feels strange but we hear it’s an important thing, so. Thank you alll for your gallantry *man there’re alot of white horses around* 😉

  4. February 20, 2010 at 6:21 am

    Tiger and Ravin have summed it up pretty well. Good riddance to the ignorant, selfish bitch.

  5. me said,

    February 24, 2010 at 7:40 am

    am v glad you fired her, she’s lucky you didn’t lay charges. i’d LOVE to chat to her.

    • February 24, 2010 at 7:55 am

      Thank, maes me smile. Just going to keep ignoring her should go away soon. Sigh.


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