The Bitch Was Back

Well. Ahem. Going back over this past week to see what all happened because moat of it was lost time.

I see the Bitch was out. I see she had to use very violent language that hence she was really hurting. Unable to say I hurt from the bizzaroworld of having jis been raps by a
CLIENT, a woman…..we had no place to put this no color for coping and so out popped the Bitch, to drive everybody away.

One of the problems we have with our DID is that each splinter is real. Each is speaking from it’s own experience and is judg as valid as any of the others. When an Alger comes up and breaks off as this Botch did this week…well
That is legitimate reality for us.

Unfortunately this one has few social skills and desires to
Have none. She comes up when the system feels threatened. Which they totally felt. And so we attempt to isolate, drive away any caring that might have been possible.

So. Looks like we shit on all therapists, on our T, on bisexuals and lesbians who Wang us go follow the rules. Straight women and men. Wowza. That is quite a list.

So. Sorry therapists. We believe that
Most of you do feel genuine compassion. Toen, well you all are as a collective group fostering the misogyny that is so all-pervasive across all countries. But we’re sure there are many of you at the individuals who are just good guys. Straight women, you’re very scary to me at this point in time
But we love you all. We just need abit more time to sort out the rape thing, it’s more
Complicates than we had thought. Bi women you fit I’m this category as well. Just giver
Just a little more time
And I will surely growww.

T knows all about the rage and we are working thru it all. Mama, how pathetic.

Well. We are back, the socially reasonable ones. If we have offended you this past week–greatest apologies. Picking up
The wreckage is the part we dislike most about this whole DID thing. When we come here again, swearing and yelling and being sarcastic. Please charge across the blogosphere and slap
Us on the nCk of the head. So sorry alll. .(

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5 Comments

  1. Karita said,

    February 20, 2010 at 10:29 am

    Splint, every post you write, including the rage-filled one, help me t understand you and your illness a little bit more. So I want to thank you for everything that you write.

    *Hugs* XXX

    • Karita said,

      February 20, 2010 at 10:30 am

      The rage-filled ones, plural. Sorry if it was unclear.

    • February 20, 2010 at 10:42 am

      Thank you so, dear. It’s a very powerful and new thing, the Bitch. Not so flattering hah but is what is. Independent cuss it’s marvelous grandma talking mostly, woman of great power and the most principled feministcwe’ve ever known. Should probably blog about her. She died at this time 20 years ago, still wear the LL Bean chamois shirt she left me. Wonderful memories.

  2. jo-sexualself-injury said,

    February 20, 2010 at 8:33 pm

    Welcome back! No need to apologize.
    jo


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