It’s not the place it’s the person

Since arrining at the airport last Thursday morning I have been living in this safety thing. I have been threatened by absolutely nothing. No panic. No need to get away. I am
Just living, here in my safe place, being so so aware of being safe.

This has been my safe place my entire life. No perps ever came here. Mom was always on her best behavior around her in-laws.

I have always thought that I Havebedn sAfe whenhere. Or way up north at my grandma’s farm.

It hit me yesterday like a thunderclaps. It is not this place that makes me safe and happy. It is me, myself. Of course I am triggered in a positive way by the environment by being aroundydad and favorite awnt.

But it’s nothing outside of me that is allowing for all of this. No place no person. Just…me on the inside. And because of this awareness I now am able to carry it with me. Because it is mine. Only I can take this feeling of being so aware and so grateful.

Is this a beautiful place? Yes no doubt about it. But I have lost my shit here many many times.

It is not in some Other. It’s in me. Empowerment plus. Hoe cool

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16 Comments

  1. Ravin said,

    June 21, 2010 at 8:17 am

    Empowered is a wonderful thing!

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 9:08 am

      Incredible feeling hope I can hang onto i

  2. caren said,

    June 21, 2010 at 8:20 am

    you sound FABULOUS and that is wonderful!!!

    I am so happy for you!

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 9:08 am

      Thanks deR. You were so right–I’m so glad to have come

  3. Susan said,

    June 21, 2010 at 8:32 am

    This post (excuse the language – heads up!) friking rocks! Let freedom ring! The insight and understanding in this post is so clear…thank you for sharing this. It will help many others:)

    May I have permission to link/post elsewhere?

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 9:10 am

      I’m glad it resonates hon, it’s why I tell so personal a story, to help others. Please, share whatever wherever. I write nothing that needs protections. 😉

  4. Pandora said,

    June 21, 2010 at 8:42 am

    Brilliant to hear this Splinty 😀 x

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 9:07 am

      A seagull explained it toe this morning. Swear.

  5. niki said,

    June 21, 2010 at 10:54 am

    wow! what a feeling. 🙂

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 11:44 am

      It’s great to be feeling good and leArn as opposed to pitting myself thru Hell to get there. Sheesh

  6. caren said,

    June 21, 2010 at 10:59 am

    @Niki, thanks lol….now I can’t get the theme from “Flash Dance” out of my head….”what a feeeeeeling!!!”!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 21, 2010 at 11:46 am

      Oh thanks, now so do I! Ewwwww 😀

  7. June 21, 2010 at 11:34 pm

    What a beautiful place to be and I am not talking about your location. Have a glorious time just being you.

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 22, 2010 at 5:18 am

      Thank you my dear.

  8. Karita said,

    June 22, 2010 at 5:36 am

    How wonderful, I hope this can help you once you’re back home. XXX

    • Splinteredones said,

      June 22, 2010 at 5:57 am

      Meeeeee tooooooooo


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